SURELY,, YOU JEST.

HAHA! feel like i've been letting this bloggy down.

coz at first i thought i'd be easy.

but as time went by i just posted in the other blog more. =X

although, this bloggy can now upload pics haha.

i shall try to post here more?

or maybe just when i want a little more privacy.

coz i know not alot of people know abtthis blog.

hmms. we shall see eh?

xP

but then, i like the lyrics.

heh.

 

lemme start off with, SORRY, to becile for not updating.

i simply didnt have the mood.

have been feeling so emo these past few days, i even cried on the bus ytd.

i miss him, you see.

not that i still like him, mind you. i dont think its possible for me to love or even like him the way i did in the past after everything that's happened.

but i miss our friendship, the warmth he gave me.

i miss our little secret way of talking/ whining/whatever u might call it.

i miss having someone who i can have fun with even after school hours.

 

i'm trying so hard. i really am.

but i dun feel the motivation to be a good girl anymore.

things like going to school on time and stuff.

he would've nagged at me the night before to go to sleep early.

even give me a morning call if he could.

now...

now i dont even feel like completing ite.

i feel so friendless and detached from the world.

sure, i have many friends.

but none that i can tell everything to.

 

i think of all his promises; promises that he didn't keep.

and i'll start crying again.

 

why do i even bother...

 

it WAS enjoyable at first.

the freedom to go out anywhere with anyone and do anything.

without having to tell him all about it.

those involved would know how he didnt like one of my friend.

and how he would get angry with me when i even talked to that friend of mine.

but after awhile, the freedom gets overrated.

boring.

tiresome.

after awhile, i wanted someone to share my life with me again, like he did.

but no, no one could meet up to my expectations.

so i guess...

i'll be on this lonely road a little while longer.

it took me 13 years. whats another few more eh.

drank 4 cups of coffee today!

haha i think... i learnt so much more in these few weeks of holidays than i ever learnt in the past few years of school.

about life, about people, and about work.

big thanks to becile andy and weilong.

special thanks to my ex for forcing my hand, and the people at the converse warehouse sale and singapore mint for making my life so much more interesting haha.

i learnt many many things from you all.

esp how to fold clothes faster than the people unfolding them, and how to work the cash register until i lose 32 dollars. HAHA!

learning how to serve difficult customers with a smile, and swallow whatever they throw at you. not literally of coz.

learning more about coins than i would ever care to, and learning about how a company really works.

its the same thing, doing sales, but i learnt from so many different aspects of it.

not to mention, the MONEY! haha.

the only thing i havent learnt is how to resist spending. ;D

 

i will miss you guys when i start school.

but, hope i'll get the chance to see those people again next year.

pics will be up on my blogger when i'm free, and when the lappy aint on power saving mode. LOL.

hehehe.

sorry laaaa.

but, i just fell in love with blogger-in-draft leh.

of coz will blog there more HAHAHA.

oops!

:X

and erm.

am too tired and unmotivated to go and spam somebody's bloggy LOL.

okay, whatever.

i seriously need to go back to doing my marketing conclusion.

like,right now.

i felt so sianed when i heard abt it.

u disappointed me more than u could ever imagine.

i knew that was ur true nature all along;

i just didnt suspect how serious it was.

ah, well.

its just as well things happened this way aites?

if not, she probably wouldnt have told me abt it,

and i would still continue to be the unsuspecting stupid girl.

oh wait.

add naive to that list.